THE fiancee of a Tasmanian soldier killed in Afghanistan has spoken of the challenges she has faced dealing with his death.
Dannielle Kitchen will today spend her first Remembrance Day without her partner, Corporal Richard Atkinson.
Dannielle Kitchen last night spoke on the ABC's 7.30pm Report about the months since Corporal Atkinson, 22, was killed by a roadside bomb in Afghanistan in February.
"Moving forward and moving on is a challenge," she said.
"I'm 23 and I'm a widow - That's your title.
"You kind of walk around with a banner over your head that says: `I'm Dannielle Kitchen and I'm a war widow.'
"It's probably not the best pick- up line you can have."
Corporal Atkins was a former Launceston Church Grammar School student who graduated from year 12 in 2006, earning the school's top sporting award, the Full Blue.
He was on his first deployment in Afghanistan when he was killed by the bomb on February 2.
"I was at a karate seminar at about 9 o'clock at night and you generally have to have your phone off ... but mine was allowed to be on just for the purposes of Richard because you never know when you're going to have a phone call," Miss Kitchen said.
"I ran to my locker and had about 20 missed calls.
"(Then) I got a phone call from his brother and what I had heard is there had been two incidents ... and Richard was just hurt. But he was really passed away.
"It breaks your heart finding out."
But the thought that she wouldn't see her fiancee again didn't settle until Corporal Atkinson's comrades returned to Australia.
"I think between Richard's death and the welcoming home parade it still felt like Richard was in Afghanistan," Miss Kitchen said.
"It hit home that he wasn't coming home when Charlie Company came off the flight.
"You see all the spouses that are there for their partners, except yours isn't there.
"That's probably the hardest time, and that's probably when you get that sense of alone and you will be alone.
"In Darwin everyone that is a war widow is in their 80s ... I had to go on my journey myself."