JOHN Jongeling is waiting to hear what more his doctors can do for him.
He knows his body cannot take any more chemotherapy, and the stem cell treatment he had three months ago did not work.
But the West Launceston man said yesterday he felt at peace, having already survived non-Hodgkins lymphoma twice.
Mr Jongeling was first diagnosed with the blood cancer in 2002, when doctors told him he would live three months without chemotherapy.
He kicked it, and had one healthy year before the cancer returned in 2004 - with doctors again telling him he had little chance of survival.
``That Christmas I ended up getting pancreatitis, and I had a massive bleed as well, so I was in the Launceston General Hospital for about two months . . . and it was touch and go,'' Mr Jongeling said.
``After that, I had Mabthera, which is a monoclonal drug which just targets straight-out cancers, and since then, I haven't had any cancer until my wife Marja and I came back from a caravan trip in Western Australia last year.
``Coming back we had a feeling - you know how you get those feelings that something is wrong?''
Mr Jongeling was diagnosed with non-Hodgkins lymphoma for the third time on January 14.
He found out last week that the stem cell transplant he had in June did not work, and will find out next week what else can be done.
``But what can they do for me? My oncologist said I couldn't have any more chemo for two years,'' he said.
Mr Jongeling said he felt grateful for the time he had been given with his wife Marja and his extended family.
``I'm at peace with it. I've had 11 years, and each time I've come out the other end, and for that I'm very thankful.
``I'm blessed that there's another beautiful day around. I'm blessed I have a wife who can mow the lawns when I can't.
Mr Jongeling said he hoped his story would encourage a conversation about cancer, particularly in the lead up to Lymphoma Awareness Day on Sunday.
``If I can talk about it and talk to other people and get people to listen, especially men, that means something . . . because men are the worst when it comes to talking about cancer,'' Mr Jongeling said.
``If you've got a problem, don't harbour it.''
For more information visit www.leukaemia.org.au/lymphoma or call 1800 620 420.